Tonight i discovered what it means to be overwhelmed by love.... It wasn't the crushing blow to the heart it sounds like it is. I was expecting a Tidal wave...It was so much calmer than that. So much more Peaceful. It snuck up on me like soft shoreline waves in fact... All i could think was this is so nice. I'd stay here forever if it was possible.It bought tears to my eyes. He couldn't understand and he hates to see me cry so he held me and said "don't crying". Jerk... That was supposed to make me stop crying?? I responded by saying 'I love you and when the time is right and we're both ready. I want to marry you" He held my hand until he fell asleep and i got up to write this. It's either official or PMS. Love is a Crazy Thing. The sad songs playing softly in the background about failed relationships and heartache didn't do anything to ruin the mood. Crazy Thing. Love.

The other night i dreamed everything i lost had come back to me. It was the best dream ever.